miracle sun, stay with me tonight

I'm feeling so much better today, just a lil sleepy, but that's okay. I'm hoping someone will come over tonight and keep me company since I'll be home alone yet again. Things are getting better again and I'm getting happier, maybe its just because the holidays are coming up, maybe its because things are just falling into place.

Now all I want is a nice cute boy to come into the picture. I know I don't need anyone, but having someone will be nice.

get me this for Christmas

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I've been out of school for the past two days and I'm not allowed to go back until Monday. I'm going to be so behind and I can't be. I can't fail again. Thursday is Thanksgiving and I'm excited for it. I'm also excited for Christmas even though its in a month. I'm just hoping everything comes back together sometime soon. Everything just needs to fall in place and I'll be happy.

adsf

I don't fucking know. I miss having someone again. Fuck winter.

l i f e

I'm so happy lately. Everything is going right for the time being. Now all I need is my phone back, I miss having that thing all the time.

I have a job interview at Pac Sun tomorrow and I'm actually excited, I need a job so bad and I've been putting off getting one for so long. Hopefully I actually get the job, that would be great, I would actually have money and be able to buy things for once. If I get the job, all I have to do now is actually start putting in an effort at school, so I can actually pass and graduate when I'm supposed to. I would hate having to stay longer at RHS than needed.

But all in all, life is good.

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I like that little things don't bother me anymore. At first they eat away a little bit, but then I think about it, and I just don't care anymore. I like this carefree style.

too bad you can't stop me now

Life is still just...happening. But I guess its alright with me. I figured out its going to take time for life to get where I want it to be, and that doesn't bother me. I'm happy to just sit back and relax and just see what happens. Its weird though, usually I'm not like this, I usually want to know whats going to happen, but lately, I just don't care whats going to happen. I'm ready for it, and I'm happy.

somebody give me a sign

I feel like something good is going to happen soon.

nice girls

Its sad how some people are so pretty on the outside, but are completely ugly on the inside. The world would be so much better if people could just learn how to be nice. And not just when they need something.

I've been thinking alot lately, I know I'm not the nicest person, but lately, I've been trying to be nicer, I don't want to be known as a bitch or anything. And I don't need karma to get me at the worst possible moment. I look at every girl from my high school, and realize that we're all bitches, we don't know how to be nice, even to our friends. We all think that we're better than everyone else and that everyone wants to be like us, but really, its not like that at all. This year I need to stop being a bitch, I don't want to end up like every other girl I know. I don't want to be like any of them, I just want to be myself, I just want to be nice. Maybe some other people will start being nice too. High school is way to full of bitches.