Hammonasset

I'm finally getting outta this town for a few weeks. Everything has just been a mess lately. Maybe getting out of here will help me think everything out and maybe help me get over it / him.

Everyday I just fall more in love with the kid, and everyday he tells me that he's moved on and I should to, but to take my time with it. Its been nine days, I don't even know why I have to love him more. I just want another chance. I mean would it kill him that much.

I don't know, I don't even know

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I don't even know what to do anymore. Its only been eight days, and I'm falling apart more than ever. Every day I just start to love him more and he just starts to love me less. I just can't take it anymore. I tell myself I'm over him, but I know I'm just lying to myself to make myself feel better. And he tells me not to lie to myself and to take my time in the process of getting over him, but I don' want to get over him yet, I just feel like something could happen. But what do I know, I'll probably just get even more hurt.

I'm a mess

Everythings changing and I feel like I've been left in the past. All I can ever think about is him and how he doesn't even love me anymore and the fact that as soon as July 23 comes around, he's just gonna find someone else.

I can't stop being miserable. I try to tell myself I'm over him and I know I'm lying. I don't even pretend to be happy anymore, there's no point in putting on a smile and acting like everythings okay.

I'm a mess

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Nothings getting easier, when he promised it would. I hate this so much