n e v e r k n o w s b e s t

Its like I don't even know you anymore. I'm trying to remember the you I thought you were. The adorable you, the one who didn't get mad at me for everything. The one I could lay with for hours doing nothing except enjoying eachothers company.

I miss everything being so carefree and amazing. Right now I'm thinking of our hands entwined and our fingers interlocked. I'm thinking about your face, and how your brown eyes crinkle whenever your with me. When we're laying together and our heartbeats synchronize, and its just like one big giant heart, don't you remember? My favorite thing was waking up next to you, with your loving arms around me and just knowing you're there. I don't know what happened, we were so strong, now its like we're falling apart.

Don't you get that I need you? That your everything I've ever wanted? Now I don't even know what happened. Its like nothing I ever do is right anymore. I pick the wrong friends and I mess up all the time. You know its funny that your ex did all the same things, yet you'd stay with her even if she was fucking other guys. And if I'm even FRIENDS with a guy you can't trust it makes you want to break up with me.

I don't feel like me anymore. Everything hurts way too much. I want this, but I don't know if I can deal with this.

I love you, you know. But how long will you love me?