l o s t i n t r a n s l a t i o n

You confuse me so much. I have no idea why your so upset that has nothing to do with you. It has to do with me and an old friend. I understand your concerned, I understand you don't want me to get hurt. But I don't understand why you can't just be happy. I don't understand why you sound like you want to kill yourself. There is no reason for you to be acting like this.

Your mad because several events happened in the past that hurt me. Guess what, that's the past. Not now. This is present time, and things are different. People are different. Hell, even I'm different. I know what I'm doing and I'm not stupid.

I just wish you'd trust my judgement a little better. I mean this is putting a strain on us for no reason. And I don't like it. I want to talk to you so bad, but I can't talk to you when your like this. It just makes me more upset and angry.

I love you so much, and I'm sorry for being pissy about this. But really, get over it.
Your a huge part of my life, and your not going anywhere, it may be your business, since I think my business is your business and vice versa, but really. You shouldn't be so upset.

I love you, never forget.

looking back

Looking back on all these posts from the last year. I've learned something.
I've changed alot. Like, alot alot.

Its weird. When I thought I was happy, I actually wasnt. I thought all these random boys made me happy, when all they really did was make me a mess. I'm happy I found Chris. He put me back together. Cliche, I know. But it's kindof true. I haven't thought about alot of these events since last year. But just for the record. I WAS NOT HAPPY A YEAR AGO. Well, I guess I was, but not as happy as I am now. December 26th 2009 was the changing point that made me happy. Thanks assholes for tricking me into shit.

But thank you Chris. I love you<3