what are you made of?

I'm just so happy today.

Its so beautiful out and things are going good.

you can hear the waves in under water caves

Everyones such a let down lately. Right now I wish I could go back to when things were simple. Back before him. It seems that's what messed me up this year, that's what made me look like an idiot. I mean I know how I acted, and I really wish I didn't. But everyone just judges so harshly on it. I didn't mean to fall in love, I didn't mean to get heartbroken and act crazy. Its the past though, I need to live with it. It seems there's only about three people that don't care anymore. Maybe one or two that didn't care in the first place, but still. When will this all blow over? Its starting to seem like it never will.

I hate junior year, I feel like everythings just harder this year. School counts more than ever and I'm doing horribly this year. I know I can do better, I know I have to do better. If I don't I'll probably never amount to anything, and I don't want that for myself. I just need to start doing better.

Everything needs to start getting better.

such a good night.

happiness

I love being happy and just not caring. That's how I am these day. I wouldn't trade anything for it. I finally feel like everything is going right. Sometimes I feel like its not, but when I look at the whole picture everything is perfect it seems. I really hope it stays like this for a long time.

sit back and wave through the daylight

Memories came flooding back to me today and for the first time I just pushed them back out of my head. Honestly, I don't even care anymore and its great. A month ago I wanted to go back in time and change anything, now I would hate to have to go back, everything is just better now. I mean sometimes I catch myself missing some things, but it doesn't really matter does it? It all happened this way for a reason.

Anyways, I'm just so ready for whats coming up these days, whatever that may be.

there's a bright light up ahead

So last night I went to see Where the Wild Things Are, and I thought it was really good, it was different from the book, but still, so so good. This morning I had PSATS, and knowing me I probably failed, at least they don't really count for anything. I'm not looking forward to the SATS in May, its months away, but its still stressing me out.

But things for the most part are still pretty good, except for one thing, but hey, thats alright.

lets have some fun and never change that for anyone

I'm going to see Where the Wild Things Are tomorrow, I'm really excited. And everything is still going really good suprisingly. I have PSATS on Saturday, I'm not excited for those. I feel like I'm going to fail miserably, but maybe I won't, who knows.

Besides all that, I'm just happy. I can't wait to get out of RHS and actually do something with my life though.

i'll taste the sky and feel alive again

Lately I've been so happy. I still am. I recently discovered how awkward I really am, but I like it. I'm grounded till Monday, it sucks. Maybe I shouldn't have stayed out until 2:30 AM, but hopefully I'll be let off grounding for tomorrow and Friday, because of the pep rally & going to see Where the Wild Things Are with Sean.

Life is just really good lately. School is still stressing me out, but it happens I guess. Everything else is suprisingly good, I'm really figuring my shit out lately, and that's a good thing.

pardon me while i burst into flames

I don't really know where to go from here.

so sick and tired of being sick and tired

I'm sick of everything and everyone.

you never said this would be simple

I need someone that works with me this time. I'm done settling for whatever is in front of me. I always seem to be attracted to jerks or manwhores. This time I want someone good. Someone who cares for me, just like I care for them. Maybe even someone to fall in love with, I'd like that. I haven't felt that in so long.

Lately I feel so alone. I don't know why, I mean I was actually happy being alone a few days ago, now I just want someone. It might take a while, but finding someone good will be worth the wait.

colder weather

Its finally Autumn, and things are changing. But I don't think its for the better. The colder weather makes me think a lot more, about everything. And I just want summer again, everything was so carefree that last month of summer.