you can hear the waves in under water caves

Everyones such a let down lately. Right now I wish I could go back to when things were simple. Back before him. It seems that's what messed me up this year, that's what made me look like an idiot. I mean I know how I acted, and I really wish I didn't. But everyone just judges so harshly on it. I didn't mean to fall in love, I didn't mean to get heartbroken and act crazy. Its the past though, I need to live with it. It seems there's only about three people that don't care anymore. Maybe one or two that didn't care in the first place, but still. When will this all blow over? Its starting to seem like it never will.

I hate junior year, I feel like everythings just harder this year. School counts more than ever and I'm doing horribly this year. I know I can do better, I know I have to do better. If I don't I'll probably never amount to anything, and I don't want that for myself. I just need to start doing better.

Everything needs to start getting better.

such a good night.