there is no parasol that could shelter this weather

School was actually alright. It was awkward when I saw him though, but I realized I don't need someone who wants to treat me like shit. But all in all, school was really good, and I'm glad I got to see people I've hardly seen this summer, and I have pretty good classes too. So school is least of my worries.

I've noticed lately that my feelings confuse me so much. I don't know what to make of them anymore. Ever since my feelings for him started fading away little by little, I've had feelings for other people, but I don't think anything will come from them. I don't know if I want anything to come from them. Maybe I'm not ready for anything else, maybe be being alone is good for me. I want to be alone, but then again I don't. Its just nice to have feelings for someone who cares and likes you as much as you like and care about them. But I won't settle for just anyone.

This could take a while...