we're seperate; diving further

I just don't know what to do anymore. Everything is getting so much harder this year. I fuck up constantly, I just don't know how to get myself on the right track anymore. I mean, I'm always with a good group of people, I don't drink or smoke or anything. But when it comes to being home and stuff, I just hate going home. My home life has gotten so bad lately, and I want it to get better, but I don't even know if its even worth it anymore. In two years I'll be out and in college, but I don't think I can wait that long. I just want to get out and have freedom. Isn't this the time where I should be getting that? I know I'm not 18 yet, but still, I have about as much freedom as an 11 year old. I just don't know. Ever since Justin broke up with me, everythings just harder. And I want it to get better.