Complications

Last night, was one of the worst nights of my life. I honestly had no idea what was happening. Within minutes I lost someone that I needed. I never knew I could feel like that, I couldn't control myself whatsoever. I know its cliché and every girl says it, but I didn't know what to do, my heart was completely broken. And today in school, everyone stared and me, and if anyone said the littlest thing about him, I would start crying. I could hardly say his name, let alone face him. I know I'm acting all dramatic, and this is on a public blog, but who cares, I bet no one even reads it. But I don't even know, everything in my life just complicated at that moment last night. I didn't know why someone who apparently loved me and cared about me, who still said it, even though it was over would do that, if they really meant it, ya know?

But then when I least expected it, when I was over his house, he wanted to get back together with me. I have no idea why, it just seems like I complicate his life with all my friend drama, and everything that bothers me. But all I know is that I'm lucky, I thought I lost something, but I didn't. I feel like the luckiest person ever actually, and I'm glad that everything is back to normal. And I hope its like this for a while.

Now I know not to take things for granted.

And hopefully I'll be the happiest person ever again.